zanny

April 6, 2015

tell me what you know about me.....
it's fascinating to see yourself from a 3rd person perspective
maybe insignificance is plaguing
but I need some reassurance that I actually exist

what are my defense mechanisms?
do I raise my eyebrows or cross my arms like you do?
do I smile as casually as you do?

do I look as bitter as I feel?

when people tell me their problems I love to listen
but truthfully I internalise it and blame myself that I
couldn't help them
because it's crushing to hear you've got anxiety or depression
and the potential that I've contributed to triggering it can
be daunting

but maybe this isn't about me
maybe it's about you

I may hurt a little, or a lot, or carry a lot of sadness
but maybe it's still more important for me to carry sadness
for you



why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind



ps. rip, floyd :(